I had my second life coaching session yesterday...life coach sounds so much fancier than therapist doesn't it? Yes, I am really paying someone to listen to me talk about being single, this is a clear indication that I need more friends because friends have to listen to that for free. My LC does bring new insights to my thinking so it is not all a waste, and if she can help me get better at life and feel happier and more contented, then it is money well spent.
We started the conversation with what my ideal relationship would look like, who I want to be with, what I want long term, etc. I really struggled with this...I don't want to actually say what I ideally want out loud, because I know that the likelihood is that I won't get this and that will mean that I will have failed. By not saying it out loud, I am not setting myself up for disappointment. I bit the bullet and told her what my ideal relationship looks like, in a way I put it out there to the universe, and according to "the Secret" putting it out there is the first step to making it a reality...second step is to feel it as reality, and third step is to receive it. Easy right? Nope, because I struggle with step 2, believing that it can actually happen. My LC asked me if I thought it was possible for something to happen if you first don't believe it can? Honestly, I do believe that you have to believe in order for something to happen...it is the rule of the universe, law of attraction...it must be true. But I struggle with believing.
My wonderful friend here in Chi shared with me something that she once did while she was going through her self-exploration. Not knowing just what she believed in after suffering through a lot of trying and heart-breaking circumstances in her past, she made a list of what she did believe in. She is amazing and inspirational and I am glad I get to learn from her. Here is my list of beliefs.
I believe in my nephew Matthew...he is the best part of my life.
I believe in my family...who I have grown to appreciate and value more every day.
I believe in sunshine...its warmth and ability to lift the spirit.
I believe in fresh flowers...to remind us there is life.
I believe in bras...yep, really!
I believe in God and a higher power...
I believe in taking walks...(I don't believe in running!).
I believe in cats and dogs...I can't wait to get a cat named Cat.
I believe in general goodness...most people have goodness in them.
I believe in taking chances and trying...this can be hard.
I believe in 612...
I believe in the need to believe...baby steps.
I believe in equality...and non-judgement.
I believe in short skirts...
I believe that just by making a list of beliefs I am getting closer to believing in myself, my worth, and my ability to attract and receive everlasting love.
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