Happy Halloween!
A new day and a new pair of sweats...Vince leggings! Actually, I went the extra mile today and curled my hair in cascading waves a la Carrie Bradshaw and applied the eye-liner to the top and bottom lashes. I looked great and felt great leaving my warm apartment to go and clean the yoga studio (hey, I am saving money for Spain while getting into shape with unlimited free sculpt classes). And now I am drumming up the motivation to get out and do something--like get coffee. Truth be told as I realized last night, I am a bit too comfortable doing nothing. I need to push myself to start doing things again even if those things are just going out for coffee, going to the library, or even window shopping. I need to get out!
The good news is that I am researching new ways to get out via the meetup.org group. A friend of mine has done a few of these group events and has had a good time. I am signed up for the Spanish language meet-up, YP networking, and 20s-30s for fun groups...now its just a matter of committing to an event and going. In my old age of 28 I realize that I am not so afraid trying and doing things on my own...(heck, even at 27 I moved to a new city alone and have lived here for 16 months alone). I now understand that doing things alone does not make me unpopular, pathetic or desperate. Conversely, exploring my interests makes me more interesting, more independent, and more appealing. I like being old!
For the first time in my life I can say that I am happy to be exactly where I am and I would not change a thing (just the 0s on my bank account). I love living in Chicago, I love the friendships in my life and I love that even at a distance, they are fruitful, sharing and meaningful, I love that my life no longer revolves around being single and how now I view being single as a huge advantage, I love my independence and ability to take care of myself, I love the freedom I have to pick and choose my next career, I love that I have a huge support system in my family and friends, I love that for the first time ever I am living up to the person I have pretended to be for so long and that people are recognizing it, I love that I recognize my blessings and that I am starting to live up to my potential.
I came to this city as a single girl seeking an answer to a question: do I believe in love? I expected the answer to be in the form of a tall dark handsome and foreign man, and while I have had a few of those, my answer manifested where I least expected. I found love in life.
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